You know that old DC Talk song "Time is Tickin Away"? Great song, great time, great group. Anyways, I've been thinking lately about TIME and how much we have of it. Sometimes it feels like I have no time at all. That all my time is just stolen away by this or that project or this or that meeting. It's a poor excuse really because God has given me 24 hours in one day to do all that I need to do. Whatever I do with that is up to me. I could get up early and make the most of my morning or I "could" just sleep in til the last possible second and feel worse than I did if I would've just gotten up early. It's all a choice. I could NOT watch TV and start painting and use the artistic gift I was given. I can do anything that I want to do with my time.
For me, it's being motivated to do that things that I am gifted to do. Normally, I can just sit around the house and talk to my family and watch movies and eat and be just as happy as a clam, (are clams happy?) but when am I finally going to do all that I was meant to do? All that I've been talking about doing for so long. My dreams are never going to just fall into my lap. I have to start somewhere.
My other obstacle is the time I feel like I have to give to everyone else. I am a simple person, or maybe I'm complicated and everyone else is simple?, but I need time alone and time with people and time to do all these things and most of the time you can't do those at the same time. I'm used to giving every night of the week to something and to be honest it is exausting. Maybe I am just not strong enough but I think maybe for once I'm ready to NOT have something to do every night. To enjoy all the times I missed with my family while I was doing something else. I enjoy getting away and doing something with friends but there are seasons to everyone's lives right? I guess my season now is a time of doing something different instead of just saying I'm going to do. Actually painting instead of just saying that "yeah, I paint" or actually reading and studying about Reflexology instead of just buying a book about it and letting it sit there...
Honestly, I don't quite understand this season of my life, so to try to explain it to you may be futile but these are my thoughts lately and maybe you'll get something out of it. I don't know? I've been asking God every EVERY day to help me understand this season...so far I'm just taking it one day at a time.
Anyways, in closing (that sounds so formal, like the letters we used to have to write in 3rd grade), CELEBRATE LIFE TODAY! Celebrate the God who gave you life, who set you FREE. Celebrate the family He has given you, Celebrate the friends He has blessed you with and make the most of the TIME you've been give. Don't have any regrets!